I have been fearful of water all my life. There has been a reoccurring dream since I was 9 in which I drown. I am very frightened in the dream.



When I turned 40 a friend asked me to keep an eye on his kayaks while he was away from our island. I took one kayak out to Lago Guajataka and paddled across the lake. There came about a spiritual transformation on that water that cannot be put to words.



I have since spent many mornings hauling my kayak down to the water at 5 m so… Continue

43 freaking years old. Freezing my patooty off in the dark, in the rain, away from home, learning drills, trying to keep up with the experienced, or the younger, or the better, or the whatever paddlers, trying to remember not to use my kayaking techniques because I am a dragon boat racer now. Hungry, cold, wet, tired, sore, sick, frustrated at my inability to do it just like the lead coach, Alden, who never bends that inside elbow and does his trunk rotaion with perfection...



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Last Wednesday my 6 month old grandaughter passed away. Possibly Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Two years ago on the same date my teen son passed away. These moments challenge us spiritually in ways we can never imagine until we are there. A well known artist in Japan and a good Canadian friend sent me a sculpted dragon (usually sells for $5,000.00 USD) in honor of my son. I was told that many Japanese believe the human spirit after death soars with… Continue